Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I Prefer Half Full

Wow. There have been some major changes in our life this summer. I started grad school and, although I love it, let me tell you, I now remember why I couldn't wait to graduate.They are restructuring the youth ministry at Westover, which means bringing in a new work with Christian. Wendi and Wade, two of our best friends, are moving to Dallas. And Shelby, my best friend in the world (and sister, by the way) is going back to ACU this year. For those of you who know me, and who have read my previous blog on change, you know that the "c word" is not a very easy one for me to say...or do for that matter.

On the other hand...I have a renewed passion for ministry outside of church. Being in graduate school has opened my eyes to the world's need for the Lord; there are so many hurting people out there. I used to feel guilty that I hadn't sold all my belongings and moved to Africa to be a missionary. Now I realize that there are people all around me who are hungry for the word of God.

On the other hand...I am so proud of my husband for the way he is handling the change...prayerfully and with an optimism that I wish I had. His bottom line: love the kids like Jesus does. We have grown close in a way that only difficulty can inspire. Christian, you continually minister to me.

On the other hand...Wendi and Wade have an amazing opportunity to begin preparing financially for their future with kids. Wendi wants to stay home with them someday...I truly admire her for that. They will be greatly missed, but for good reason. They have loved people and invested in them whole-heartedly during their 2 years here. What an example you are to us!

On the other hand...Shelby finally gets to return "home" to her ACU family. I am so proud of her for putting aside her career aspirations for one year to solidify her relationship with the Lord and with all her Godly friends. I am excited for her to relish in the blessing of is so worth it. I will really miss her (especially because she keeps me "on the daddy ticket"...j/k...sorta), but I am full of joy at the same time.

On the other hand...Change is hard, but I have to remind myself that God loves me and knows exactly what I need. Lord, you are so faithful. Thank you for being in control.